Can't sleep...

I am feeling a bit blue tonight...and can't sleep. Starting to wonder about a bunch of things in my life, and especially about my expectations...are they too high, still? After so many years, I still hope things will fall into place magically and I am soooo disappointed when they don't. Have some of you ever just gone from blog to blog, you know check out the "competition"? I can't believe how many God related ones there are, and the rest are very personal family update blogs. What are the chances someone comes upon mine per coincidence and finds my treats good enough to...ahhh, dreaming again. Expecting things to fall in place while making no efforts at all...am I just setting myself up for disappointment again?